The Impossible

Woke up on Tuesday morning. First thing I did was check my phone. Ok, so far no one call yet, well Sunway haven't call. Check again after taking bath, and every hour. Until I've received a MSG from Kar Yee. That moment heart stopped and then started pumping like shit! By around 4 p.m. I'm panicking. Almost everyone received a call, why haven't I? Kept asking myself that. Though people kept telling me I've passed, but I somehow don't feel comfortable feeling and thinking so. It feels like as if I were to think and feel so, my phone will ring the very next second! Talking about paranoid!

December 24th, finally, I'm comfortable to think and feel that I've passed my papers! Its been about 3 days since then, I should be fine! Hahaha...So happy that I've passed all my papers!!!!


Never thought that I would pass all papers! I thought that I'm gonna get a call which inform me that I've failed Research Methods. Well, that what I practically expected. But anyhow, I passed my papers!!! Pass Psycho, Research and Stats!!! Passed!!!! Yeah!!!!


P/S: Sorry, to those who failed. Gambateh!!! You guys will definitely pass! Psycho students does not give up easily! See you guys in both Pet Behaviour, and Emotions and Motivations!!!

Pre-Celebration

Venue : One Utama

Day,Date: Wednesday-09/11/09

1. Random Walk:

White Christmas!!! So nice the deco! If I ever get marry, I would want this stage as my aisle! Imagine walking up those steps, the whole place looked so grand and fairy tale-like! Ah... What a nice dream?!Then, we saw something that is cute and awesome. Pictures of it are provided below. See for yourself, I want it!!!



2. Baseball:

See the 'Manly' Aliza? After an hour of walking, they (Aliza and Jackson) decided to play baseball! Of course, at first they missed a few shots. Few shots later, they scored some points. Aliza can swing! Now I know not to mess with her when she has a bet on her hand! She is good and most of all scary.... Cause she is so much more taller than me! But then at the same time, nice to bully too. hahaha....




3. Movie:

It's time for Ninja Assassin!!! The movie that Bi had trained for eight hours a day, seven days a week, and for eight months. To get that killer body. Moreover, he did 99% of the stunts!

Ayeasha should watch this! The training that Raizo had gone true. OMG, its so tough but most of all its painful! How the hell he actually gone through the training? Embracing hunger and pain, killing without mercy! Get beaten to death if your weak while training. It's so sad, he lost his first love too. I feel for the girl...

The movie, bhahahaha... It's so funny!!! The blood practically flow like water! It's like concentrated Ribena! The effects was great although I think the movie is ridiculous! Rain have a superb great body!!! Sadly, not much lines. His English pronunciation is not bad for a Korean. Don't expect much from the killing scenes, your gonna laugh till you drop!





4. Dinner:

Chilli's!!! Well, can't really provide pictures, cause did not took any. But Chicken Martilas? it's a must try. Sorry, don't really remember the name of the dish, but it's damn nice. But the fire something Chicken is sort of dry. The best is still their mash potatoes!!!

*More pictures

*Aliza's virtual B'day cakes:

*Cake No. 1

*Cake No. 2

*Kar Yee's Bento Set.

* Dessert No.1.

*Dessert No.2.

After-effect of Psycho Paper

Finally, I feel like a human being today. I felt my heartbeat so quick till I thought it stopped for a second when I saw the question paper. Sat for three papers without feeling any nervousness; nothing at all, even though I know that I'm gonna receive a call from Ms Janie (Psy Department), telling me that I've flunk my research methods paper. Sat for Psychology paper today, and finally I felt nervousness, felt like I' m a normal human being. This is the feeling that I should be feeling not emotionless!

Despite so, after the paper, I went straight back to my initial state; emotionless. What the hell is wrong with me?! I really start to wonder is this really what I want to do? If so, then why do feel so? Why am I even in this state?

I don't even feel the Christmas spirit. Everyone is busy taking pictures and they looked so happy doing it. Me? I just don't feel it at all. I'm praying hard that she would call me only to tell me that I flunk my Research Methods paper, pls not Psychology! I studied damn hard for it. This is the one paper I truly wanted to pass, I not even asking for an A but a pass would be good enough for me.

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About the same time (22/11) as the previous year, all five of you stepped on this very stage together and received five awards including Best Album of the Year. It felt so great to be able to see you guys on stage back at your home ground after a year and seven months away. However, it seems different this year. I literally cried when I only saw three of you on that stage receiving the Best Representing Artist for Asia award. The whole scene looks wrong and weird to me. How can only three out of five came and received the award, knowing the fact that all of you are at home and not somewhere else receiving any awards?! This scene is hard for me to process. It looks so different up to the fact that I think receiving the award is meaningless.

See how happy you guys are ! (15/11/08)

I see fake happiness. How bout you? (22/11/09)

I think you guys think and feel so too! I somehow felt that the award you've received meant nothing, at least it does not meant much compared to five of you receiving it together as one! Not as three separated individuals. It is sad to know that you guys are appearing together in Japan but not in your home country, where the group was born. I may not be from the same nationality but I definitely love to see you guys performing as one in Kpop world. Cause this is how I discovered and fell in love with you guys and your music.

Pain That Could Not Be Describe

It hurts me to read the latest updates as its all anything but good. Every time I read the headline my heart either skips a beat or feels so uneasy! I really hope that everything will turn out good, that everything is just a joke. I wanted it so bad to be a nightmare instead of reality!

It hurts me to see you guys slowly falling apart. Even when I tried to hold my tears but somehow it just flow naturally although I told myself nothing is ascertain yet, that there may be a turning point tomorrow. I could never imagine you guys doing your stuffs separately, individually! Why must it be this way?

Will you guys keep your promise to hold on together no matter what happens?! Will you guys fall apart because of this ridiculous thing? Will you guys ever stand on the stage as one again?

These questions seems to be unanswered. Although somewhere deep in my heart I somehow knew the answers to my questions. I hope what I felt would not come true! This group will never be complete without any of you!

Freeze! or I'll shoot

Woke up super early yesterday, then went for breakfast with "Sampat" and her dad. Thanks for the breakfast and ride Uncle Lin. Sharp at 8.30 am, went and registered then staright up to Audi 7. So big, so wide and DAMN COLD.... The first talk by some policeman, name...I forgot>< too sleepy to remember, but I do remember the talk. I didn't know that only super super rich people get apply for a gun! We are not allowed to carry any form of weapon (i.e. pen-knife, pocket knife etc.). How the hell are we (girls) suppose defense ourselves?! I got lots of questions to ask him but cause of time...so didn't get to and he left before Morning Tea. Such a disappointment!

Next slot, Cyber crime! Sorry, sort of slept... so can't remember much. Sorry!!! Then Morning Tea!!! Yes, I need my coffee!!!! The smell, the taste....Whoa, it's so so good!!!! I can't live without coffee...Yes I'm officially a coffee addict, can't start my day without it, thanks to "someone"! After that, it's arts and crafts time!!! Whoa... I'm so looking forward to this!

Instructions:
1. Draw any scene or write anything that best represent a safe community, world.
2. Then present your thoughts about the picture or slogans to your group members.

Well, I drew our planet and divided it into two parts; 1. Peaceful community and 2. Worrisome community. So the peaceful one, has people of all ages playing around, they are all smiling and greeting each other happily. It looked as if there is only happiness in a peaceful community. Whereas, the worrisome community is filled with wars, crimes, and death. In this community, people of all ages can easily die in the streets and there are no place safe at all. Everything is destroyed and ruined.

So practically it means that we as the citizen should work together to maintain the peace and harmony despite our skin-colour, religion, and where we come from. If we don't do so, our planet or rather the world would be a place where it is dangerous, worrisome and where happiness does not exist. "Peace Should Be Kept, Not Destroyed"! (sorry, didn't take a pic of it) But I took a picture of Nadia's. It's so good and pretty!!!

*Pretty right?!

After that, it's lunch time. Instead of going lunch, "Sampat", "Bai zhi", Farrah and I, went to the police cars and motorbikes showcase. OMG, it's so interesting.... see for yourself.

*Check out the interior!

I went all crazy!!! And I have a good reason for it! How often can you get into a police car or get on their bikes without getting into trouble with them? Not at all, for some people. So this is the only time for me to explore everything... I even played with the handcuff....So so fun!!! And the best of all Aliza wanted to ride in the car since they are going off, so just wanted a ride around the front foyer (the drop off). But, to our surprise, the policeman flirted with her!!! See lar, how to trust our policemen, when they pull this kind of stunts while on duty?!

Here are some pictures of drugs.... It's part of the exhibition. Sorry for the blur images.

After all that commotions, we went back to the audi for Dr Teoh's talk on Terrorism, then Mr. Linus's Commercial crime and lastly the forum. Well, what a day right?! I had so so much fun... I'm so looking forward to conventions like that!!!

Fraud? Backstabbings?

Seriously, what the hell is going on?! The other two members are backstabbing the other three. The other three is now the culprit of this whole controversy?! SME said that those three members are doing this for their own benefits. While the other two members said that it is wrong of them to do this, to even start a lawsuit! Gosh, even their parents commented on this controversy!!!

Their future as one now seem very weak and unsure. I pray hard for them to stay together but somehow, what I read today... told me otherwise! Cause of this stupid money hunger, this talented group is falling apart, into pieces! How can they let this happen, when they promised to stay together no matter what happen in the future?!

Is this just a lie?!
Promises are never meant to be broke, its meant to be kept!
If you intended to break it, then you shall never ever make another promise that you yourself cannot kept! Even when you are not sure yourself! It's not nice to give people hope and then crush it!!!

It's sad to see such talented group breaking apart because of money!!! or rather a beauty company!!! I'm disappointed to see this!