Lost & Confuse

It is really cool to watch Clinical Psychologist helping mentally ill patients. However, learning this subject is another thing. I guess I was naive at that time. I used to think that as long as we like a certain subject or that we are really passionate about it, learning the subject would not be a problem.

Now, as I'm older, I somehow knew that is not just it. After the first Psychology class and assignment, I'm doubting myself. I'm facing lots of difficulty in understanding it. Furthermore, I have limited vocabularies. There are lots of bombastic words that I don't understand. I struggle when it comes to reading. In English class, there are some passages that I completely do not understand although after reading the whole essay twice. I'm really starting to lose faith in myself.

My dream of becoming a Psychologist, now seems more like a dream! I kept asking myself every day, "Am I suitable for this?", "Am I capable of doing this?". These questions kept repeating in my mind.

I'm considering dropping out of the course, if I can't really cope up with it by end of this semester. This would be my last resort. If I do, this would be my biggest regret. Not only that I've disappointed myself but also my mom. I begged her to let me enroll in this course! Moreover, my family disapprove me of taking this course.

Anyhow, I would really want to try my best to understand everything. Because of this, I did something that I would never do in the past. I actually ask help for a person that I least want to be associated with. At first it was really hard to ask for a favour as we had a really big fight. After, long time of struggling, I finally did it. I threw my pride and ego, and sms-ed him. I'm relief that he is willing to help although I made my request sounded like a junior asking for help from a senior although we somehow hang around the same group.

I guess I'm not over the fight yet. And I don't want to force him into it, since he may be feeling guilty over the fight. Bottom line is I don't want him to think that we are friends again. For us to be friends again, he would have to earn the friendship the hard way. It's would be hard for me to trust him again!

KL Outing, 22/08

Finally, I spent two days one night in KL. This is the first time I'm spending my night in KL with friends! It's so nice, exciting and interesting!

We didn't do much during the day. We watched UP. The movie was hilarious and sad. Poor guy missing his wife so much and trying to fulfill her dream. I wish to have a husband like him, the caring part not the mean part! The seats at Pavilion is so COMFY and NICE! Must go there again!

We then proceed to the fountain outside Pavilion. Yeah, we took lots of pictures. They even have a picture perfect spot! That is just so AMAZING!!! The fountain is so BEAUTIFUL during the night!

I want a fountain like that at my home, well a small one.


Then, we had dinner at Sakura. It's damn expensive! There goes our dessert at Chocolate Lounge. We did go there around 12 am, and it's still open. Wanted to go for dessert turns out they are closing, I guess it's just our luck.

But then, something interesting caught our eyes. We say a couple, not just any couple, but homosexual couple. They are so cute and open about it; they are holding hands, going for mid-night movie. So CUTE!!! And we are in Malaysia some more!

After 5 minutes of 'admiration', we headed down to the street look-alike; the bars and restaurants inside Pavilion. We first went in to the first bar-restaurant we saw. After sitting down, we somehow have a change of mind. So, Arman and I walked out to do some surveying then we found a cheaper one; Carlos (my baby's name). So, we call Yin and the rest to come over. Yeah, I know, we are bad for doing so! But we can't help it. It's somewhat cheaper and with better music!

However, the music wasn't that nice as they kept playing the same songs.

'They must not be doing well in the business. No money to buy new Cd's,' quoting Kyle.


Hahahahha..... I had my first bottle of beer; Heineken. It tasted so much better, drinking from the bottle!
But then Arman's Corona something tasted way better. It's so much easier on the trough! And so much NICER!!! Hahahhaa.... We hang and talked about lots of stuffs... till 1 or 2 am. Then, we took more pictures at the fountain and the billboards on the street. Hahahah....It was fun and crazy! No, we are not drunk. Only David is!

We headed back to the hotel after sending Arman off. Haihz, talking bout the hotel;KL Plaza. It's so SCARY!!!Till the point, both Kyle and I have to do the Chinese virtual. I didn't even dared to sleep in our room, both me and yin slept in the guy's room, on the floor.

Then, David had his early snacks;Marshmallows! He burned the Marshmallows on the stove. He invented that! Hahahah...It's so nice!!! We had fun doing that while watching Heads over Heels on TV2.

We then headed to the room to play cards. Well, only them not me; want to sleep. The next morning, we all woke up at 930 am and made cup mees, I made them. Then, we packed and just chilled in the room on the NICE and COMFY bed. We talked bout lots of stuffs including condoms, flavoured condoms to be exact. Both Kyle and I are trying to convince each other the use of flavoured condoms (others are rushing out the room). I reasoned that, it's because some girls just doesn't like the semen's taste (blow job) so they use the flavoured condoms instead. Kyle reasoned that girls can somehow taste the flavour using their vagina! KYLE THAM, that is so ridiculous! Suppose to have lots of picture, most of them are still with Yin! =(

It's NOT THE SAME IF THEY ARE NOT TOGETHER!

What the fuck?! Dong Bang Shin Ki can't break up! It won't be the same if Micky, Jae Joong and Xiah leaves the group or even SM! U-know and ChangMin and 3 other unknown people will never replace the ORIGINAL Dong Bang Shin Ki!

At this point, I totally agree with their fans in Korea boycotting SME! What the hell is their problem?! Trying to squeeze everything out of DBSK?! Poor boys, can't even take a proper break or even enough sleeps! They are human to!

Companies which imposed such polices to their artists are really inhuman! If the three of them do leave the company, I hope both U-know and ChangMin will leave SME too. It's not worth to stay! DBSK will be better off without SME!

Even SME were to boycott DBSK; stopping them from appearing on TV. I strongly believe that it is least like it would happen. If some broadcasting stations are not inviting them to any of their music shows or what so ever, others will and that particular broadcasting stations' rate will definitely drop drastically. At the end of the day, those stations and SME will bare the losses! Not the boys.

Wouldn't it be stupid not to invite them to appear on TV or music shows? DBSK itself is a world wide brand. They have created their own brand in the music industry and also in both Asia and South East Asia! All SME did was provided them the opportunity and training (10%), the rest is the boys hard work, will-power (90%). Don't you think so?

I strongly believe that, if someone were given an opportunity to do something he or she love and took it, they'll have to work their ass off in order to achieve all their goals. But if they don't work hard, even they took up the offer, they'll never succeed or achieve their goals.

The Good Old Times

It's been a long time since we've seen each other. After two whole months, we finally got together and had lunch at Thai Thai. Seeing you guys again, brought back those time where we used to make lots of noise at the foyer like no one's business, it's like I'm back in CIMP again.Grouping in the middle of the foyer, somehow attracting attention from others towards us. Today was like Deja Vu.

This week to me was damn tiring and worrisome. Going out for lunch, doing catch-ups and crapping, really helped me to released lots of stress. Stories, like May's ass got stuck; in a space near the sit in the van. Yup, she got stuck. How?

Well, due to the long journey to Gunung Datuk, everyone fell asleep in the van. As the driver
made a fast turning, May, whose sleeping, dropped from her sit into the space next to her sit
and got her ass stuck. The first sentence that came out of her mouth after being awake,

"My ass! My ass!"

This caused everyone who are sleeping to be awake and some started laughing real hard and
loud except for the driver, he is shocked i guess. Only one of them actually helped her out.

This story immediately became the hottest talk among us. We even imagined Zaleha's reaction if she were to be in May's situation. Just so you know, all of us predicted that she will deny it at first and if she really can't get up, yeah, she will admit it. That's Zaleha!

We've also talked about little Dracies [(Darwin+ Tracy= Darcy) therefore, Darcy's children= Little Darcies].

Rules for Little Darcies:

No.1 Do not follow Aunt May to anywhere. (May got bad sense of direction)
No.2 Do not trust anything Aunt Charis says. (She can't be trusted)
No.3 Do not ask food from Aunt Zaleha. (She won't have any)
No.4 Do not go near Aunt Aliza. (She will take your ears away)

And we crapped lots more. Too many to be remembered! I hope we could do this once in every month. But I don't think it's possible, since we will all be super duper busy.

Quote of the day,

"We judge because we care."

- Charis & Tracy-

Fear of the Unknowns

It's only the first week of Psychology and I'm already stressing. Although studies haven't really begin.There are lots of uncertainties. Like Introductory Psychology, the passing rate is damn low; not many ppl pass it. Moreover, I can't seem to cope with its 3 hours of lecture with only 5-10 mins break.Facing fears of unable to cope up later; when studies really begin, unable to meet the standards. Now, that Sunway has accepted my Scholarship application, the pressure is even more now.

Now that, I've given my major assignment for Intro...my worries are increasing day by day. I hope my plans for this research essay will work out as I intended it to be and hopefully get an A. I hope my expectations are not to ambitious. Not only this, I need to practically get an A or at least a B but I really want an A for this particular subject. Since the passing rate is low,I want to challenge myself. I want to see how well can I do, how far can I get! Now, with Yin and Tracy gone, who is going to read, edit and give comment of my essays?

Computers!

Seriously, computers in the lab sucks! Can't even read my pen-drive! Some don't have Micro. Office 2007 and some has. What the hell?! Everyone doing Stats homework except me. Feel so unproductive! Must get the software a.s.a.p. Ok, off to look for help. Must finish Stats by today!

Beginning of a New Chapter

First day of Psychology course begun with English class. Yup, English. Thought it was the end of it during pre-u but not. Well, we didn't do much; self-intro, course outlines etc. Thought that I would meet lots of new people but apparently not. Since, most of my classmates are ex-CIMPians. However, got to know to some; Jennifer, the Scottish girl, Aun (sorry if I spelt it wrongly), the party guy and Alex, the guy who flew around Malaysia. Can't really comment on the lecturer yet so...

Next, Stats class! Thought it would be the same as English class but we have started taking down notes and doing worksheets.First lesson, Intro to Stats without Maths; Nominal, Ordinal, Interval, Ratios.
How the hell do you distinguish Ordinal and Interval? Gosh, it's only the first class and I'm having trouble.It's ok, found a clearer explanation in Research Method book. Funny right? It's not, since both are inter-related. Overall, stats class is ok.

Research class. OMG!!! I swear, her voice just puts everyone to sleep. Everyone was yawning and I don't really understand her. Seems like she is lecturing but it sounded like she is reading. Since it's only her first time lecturing, I hope she gets better. However, I've concluded that, I should stock up sweets to stay awake for the next class.


Second day begin with Study Skills class. Yes, we have study skills as a subject. It's a relief to know that this class only last for 4 weeks. One this is for sure, this class surprisingly is the most fun one so far. Although it's tough since it's based on our listening and notes taking skills.I'm looking forward for this class.

Stats tutorial is next. Today's lesson was so fun and interesting. We got to play around with the SSPS? programme. It's fun keying in data. But the software... it's hard to get. Please let me know if anyone has that programme. I need it!

The least interesting tutorial is next.Initially, I wasn't looking forward to it but I was at the end of the class. Cause Ms. Woo is lecturing today. Her class was so fun and interesting! Although I'm facing some hardship in writing a hypothesis. Creating a hypothesis is damn hard. It must be damn specific up till the point that no question can be asked and it's totally different from the normal way of writing a hypothesis. This is something that I must working on tonight itself. And hopefully, can get some feedback tomorrow. Oh yeah, not forgetting that I need to read a journal and answer questions.

Overall, today is better than yesterday. I'm really looking forward to Intro to Psycho class. Hopefully it would be fun and interesting.

PS: I only got 4 study days!!!

Men are from Mars & Women are....

My sis just bought this book, Men are from Mars & Women are from Venus. This book is damn interesting. I start to understand how both genders reacts differently and the differences in interpreting stuffs. Anyone can related to this book despite whether your in a relationship or not.

But don't know why, I'm taking my sweet time to read it. Well, its a total different genre of books. So I guess, I need time to get use to reading this kind of books. Hahahaha... How am I going to read Psycho journals, if I'm not that eager to finish a book like this?

It's 11/08 !

1. PTPTN Application sent.
2. First Semester fees paid.
3. Bought new stationaries.
4. Wait for 13/08 to arrive...

Finally! After rotting at home for the pass two months, I'm starting Uni in 2 days time! Hahhahaha..... So happy and excited!

Can't wait to meet new classmates or new friends and of course old friends too! I would never forget you guys! Aliza, let's be classmates again ! ^^

Another year Older.

Went to my Uncle's house for dinner. As soon as I stepped in the house. I saw food! Yes, I'm damn hungry and it's almost 8 30 pm. Saw chicken curry, roasted duck, Chinese style broccoli, salted fish, red-coloured eggs and vegetable sup. Hmmmmm...

But a bit disappointed as there was no sight of Seafood Tom Yam, my favourite dish. It's a must have in my aunt's house but unfortunately, she didn't cook that dish yesterday. As me and my sis tasted the chicken curry, it didn't taste delicious at all. Instead it tasted awful. Therefore,

'Grandma, your curry tasted awful.'

'It's from your grandaunt. She cooked it.'

'No wonder, it tasted awful. No one will finish it.'

True enough, no one touched it after the first bite. It's the worst curry I've ever tasted! I wonder what happen to the curry? Maybe my aunt feed the dogs. Well, at least it's not wasted.

Talking bout dogs. Nancy, my uncle's dog reminds me of Cow. When I see her, I see Cow! Especially the eyes.... Puppy eyes! Not a real cow but my puppy, Cow. Nancy gave birth to Cow and now she is pregnant again. More Cows are coming. Hahahaha....

The event ended with Ice Cream Cake. Chocolate ice- cream cake..... Delicious.... Although it's nothing much but I miss my Grandma's cooking. She is the best! To me at least... Eating her cookings are like heaven. Cause she cooks it the way I like it. Hahahahha...

It's Not True

Just about 4 years ago, I was introduce to K-pop by the famous Korean singer, Rain. Thanks to him, I later found this super cute group of guys with great powerful vocals.

I instantly fell in love with them! I've started to buy their albums, beginning with the 2nd one; Rising Sun. I think the song Rising Sun is quite refreshing and very Indian-ish (just before the rapping part). Then on the same year, the 3rd one namely 'O' album came. This album featured tracks with lots of genres and it's suitable for all ages. There is this song, Balloon sounded just like McDonald's theme song (only the opening part) and the video clip is so so CUTE! Try listening to this track and you'll know what I mean.

For two solid years, they had been focusing on their career in Japan. And their success came knocking in the beginning of 2008 with Purple Line. Other singles; Beautiful You and Why Did I Fall in Love With You? topped the Oricon chart for weeks and they became the FIRST foreign boy band with 3 singles that tops the chart after 24 years. They even got to performed on Japan's most prestige stage.

Then came their 4th Korean album, Mirotic. Among all their Korean album, I like this one the best. This album has catchy songs like Mirotic (super cool dance moves), Crazy Love and Paradise. Love In The Ice, Korean version is also included in this album, written by Max. Somehow this song sounded better in Korean, don't know why but it does!

Few months later, The Secret Code; Japanese 4th album was born. Some of the tracks somehow sounded really wrong. Or maybe it's just me? ^^ Among all their J-songs, their latest, Tea for Two is the best. Maybe it's because it sounded sweet and loving unlike others which sounded depress. Life it's self is harsh and sad for some people, I don't think we need anymore sad songs to remind us of our sad memories. Instead we need more happy, loving songs like Tea for Two. Songs that remind us of our sweet memories with our family, friends and lovers. Don't you agree?

The songs sang by this group are high-quality. They expressed the songs with great emotions along with their great vocals. Bolero, Love In The Ice, Stand by You are some of it. No wonder they are named the RISING GODS OF THE EAST; Dong Bang Shin Ki.

With the latest controversy of the band and their company, SME, will we ever get to hear songs from them? Speculations of them may be breaking up is circulating on the Internet. Although, the members denied it but there is a chance that this rumor might actually turn into reality! I don't wish or hope that this will happen. I don't want this to happen at all!

I've already missed their first showcase in Malaysia back in 2005. Also missed their 1st concert in Malaysia due to SPM Bio papers on Monday! I've been waiting to kill all those friends of mine who told me how great it was! Till now, I've been asking myself, 'Why must it be during SPM? Why must Bio papers be on Monday?'. If they do just break up like this, their concerts that I've missed will be my biggest regret! I really hope this would all be only a dream.