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About the same time (22/11) as the previous year, all five of you stepped on this very stage together and received five awards including Best Album of the Year. It felt so great to be able to see you guys on stage back at your home ground after a year and seven months away. However, it seems different this year. I literally cried when I only saw three of you on that stage receiving the Best Representing Artist for Asia award. The whole scene looks wrong and weird to me. How can only three out of five came and received the award, knowing the fact that all of you are at home and not somewhere else receiving any awards?! This scene is hard for me to process. It looks so different up to the fact that I think receiving the award is meaningless.

See how happy you guys are ! (15/11/08)

I see fake happiness. How bout you? (22/11/09)

I think you guys think and feel so too! I somehow felt that the award you've received meant nothing, at least it does not meant much compared to five of you receiving it together as one! Not as three separated individuals. It is sad to know that you guys are appearing together in Japan but not in your home country, where the group was born. I may not be from the same nationality but I definitely love to see you guys performing as one in Kpop world. Cause this is how I discovered and fell in love with you guys and your music.

Pain That Could Not Be Describe

It hurts me to read the latest updates as its all anything but good. Every time I read the headline my heart either skips a beat or feels so uneasy! I really hope that everything will turn out good, that everything is just a joke. I wanted it so bad to be a nightmare instead of reality!

It hurts me to see you guys slowly falling apart. Even when I tried to hold my tears but somehow it just flow naturally although I told myself nothing is ascertain yet, that there may be a turning point tomorrow. I could never imagine you guys doing your stuffs separately, individually! Why must it be this way?

Will you guys keep your promise to hold on together no matter what happens?! Will you guys fall apart because of this ridiculous thing? Will you guys ever stand on the stage as one again?

These questions seems to be unanswered. Although somewhere deep in my heart I somehow knew the answers to my questions. I hope what I felt would not come true! This group will never be complete without any of you!

Freeze! or I'll shoot

Woke up super early yesterday, then went for breakfast with "Sampat" and her dad. Thanks for the breakfast and ride Uncle Lin. Sharp at 8.30 am, went and registered then staright up to Audi 7. So big, so wide and DAMN COLD.... The first talk by some policeman, name...I forgot>< too sleepy to remember, but I do remember the talk. I didn't know that only super super rich people get apply for a gun! We are not allowed to carry any form of weapon (i.e. pen-knife, pocket knife etc.). How the hell are we (girls) suppose defense ourselves?! I got lots of questions to ask him but cause of time...so didn't get to and he left before Morning Tea. Such a disappointment!

Next slot, Cyber crime! Sorry, sort of slept... so can't remember much. Sorry!!! Then Morning Tea!!! Yes, I need my coffee!!!! The smell, the taste....Whoa, it's so so good!!!! I can't live without coffee...Yes I'm officially a coffee addict, can't start my day without it, thanks to "someone"! After that, it's arts and crafts time!!! Whoa... I'm so looking forward to this!

Instructions:
1. Draw any scene or write anything that best represent a safe community, world.
2. Then present your thoughts about the picture or slogans to your group members.

Well, I drew our planet and divided it into two parts; 1. Peaceful community and 2. Worrisome community. So the peaceful one, has people of all ages playing around, they are all smiling and greeting each other happily. It looked as if there is only happiness in a peaceful community. Whereas, the worrisome community is filled with wars, crimes, and death. In this community, people of all ages can easily die in the streets and there are no place safe at all. Everything is destroyed and ruined.

So practically it means that we as the citizen should work together to maintain the peace and harmony despite our skin-colour, religion, and where we come from. If we don't do so, our planet or rather the world would be a place where it is dangerous, worrisome and where happiness does not exist. "Peace Should Be Kept, Not Destroyed"! (sorry, didn't take a pic of it) But I took a picture of Nadia's. It's so good and pretty!!!

*Pretty right?!

After that, it's lunch time. Instead of going lunch, "Sampat", "Bai zhi", Farrah and I, went to the police cars and motorbikes showcase. OMG, it's so interesting.... see for yourself.

*Check out the interior!

I went all crazy!!! And I have a good reason for it! How often can you get into a police car or get on their bikes without getting into trouble with them? Not at all, for some people. So this is the only time for me to explore everything... I even played with the handcuff....So so fun!!! And the best of all Aliza wanted to ride in the car since they are going off, so just wanted a ride around the front foyer (the drop off). But, to our surprise, the policeman flirted with her!!! See lar, how to trust our policemen, when they pull this kind of stunts while on duty?!

Here are some pictures of drugs.... It's part of the exhibition. Sorry for the blur images.

After all that commotions, we went back to the audi for Dr Teoh's talk on Terrorism, then Mr. Linus's Commercial crime and lastly the forum. Well, what a day right?! I had so so much fun... I'm so looking forward to conventions like that!!!

Fraud? Backstabbings?

Seriously, what the hell is going on?! The other two members are backstabbing the other three. The other three is now the culprit of this whole controversy?! SME said that those three members are doing this for their own benefits. While the other two members said that it is wrong of them to do this, to even start a lawsuit! Gosh, even their parents commented on this controversy!!!

Their future as one now seem very weak and unsure. I pray hard for them to stay together but somehow, what I read today... told me otherwise! Cause of this stupid money hunger, this talented group is falling apart, into pieces! How can they let this happen, when they promised to stay together no matter what happen in the future?!

Is this just a lie?!
Promises are never meant to be broke, its meant to be kept!
If you intended to break it, then you shall never ever make another promise that you yourself cannot kept! Even when you are not sure yourself! It's not nice to give people hope and then crush it!!!

It's sad to see such talented group breaking apart because of money!!! or rather a beauty company!!! I'm disappointed to see this!