Indulgence

Since last week, I've received some mangas from Kar Yee... I'm done with a few of it... I don't remember the title but it was sweet, the storyline... Ahahahha...I just finished another one; not from Kar Yee's collection, but the Internet, namely Mangafox.com.

I found this manga on the net. The story revolves around four actors. Minami, a actor who is doing not so-well, was casted in a drama production for kids. After much persuasion by his manager, Minami finally accepts it and the moment he met his co-star, Sawada, a deep feeling of hatred Minami. Things starts to get out of hand when Sawada kissed Minami to fulfill his curiosity about dating men. Minami could not understand his own painful feelings whenever he see Sawada dating another man. When he realises, Minami blackmailed (threaten to tell the press about his sexual preference) Sawada into having sex with him.

Little did he know, doing so has made Sawada hate him and he felt even more pain. He then sworn to forget about Sawada while starting another relationship with his another co-star, Katagiri. To top it off, Sawada's former co-star and lover, Takagi, was casted as a special guest in the drama. Thus, ...

Wanna know what happen? Read yourself, no fun if I tell everything! But warning to those who does not prefer this genre, it's not so much of sex but there are and some may be too much for you. Think twice! Lastly, enjoy reading Hero Heel!

The Girl who Never Age!

It is every women's dream to stay young. A period where wrinkles and flabby muscles does not exist. That way we would always stay youthful and beautiful, however, as most of us know this is just not reality but merely a wish, a dream, an impossible dream.

Would you believe if I were to tell you that such girl exist? Most of you must be thinking that I'm writing something stupid, make believe blog post. But unfortunately, this is not another make believe blog post but it's a real story of a 17 years old girl, who can't seem to age.

See the baby? Her name is Brooke Greenberg, 17 years old; the girl or rather teenager who can't seem to age. Even after the parents tried to put weight on her; growth pills when she was little. But nothing seem to work, she didn't grow any tall, like her other siblings. In addition to that, she is fed through a tube due to her small esophagus (food can actually go through her lungs and cause pneumonia)! According to the dad, when she was young she spent most of her childhood life (about 60%) in the hospital and she escaped death four times!This really sad for her. She can't age and is ain't healthy!

Though she is like any normal children who wants to be independent, but due to her condition, I think there are lots of things or activities that she unable to experience. But luckily she enjoys going school and have fun there; and home also...

People can't treat her like a normal child. The mother said that when people asked how old was Brooke,

'She is 12 months old,'

that's what her mother answered. She does not want others to looked at her child like some kind of science experiment. Her condition is apparently due to gen mutation (her growth gen; controls aging). Doctors are now studying her condition in hope to understand and also find a cure to it.

So anyone out there still want to stay young eternity? What I'm trying to say here is that we should enjoy what we have as some may not be as lucky as we are to lead a healthy and wonderful life, though it's human nature to want more of everything including the impossibles. This greedy urge of ours can be control, if you want to.

Just so you know, though some may say that the mind controls you, but do you know you can control your own mind?! Try telling yourself out loud, like when you can't seem to concentrate, tell yourself that what ever problems you are facing now can wait, so concentrate on your work. If you lose your job, that would be bigger problem!

P/S: I got to know about this through E, so thanks to them my knowledge of the world is borden!

Journey to Crazy Land

One night at Kar Yee's place...hahahha... I came back with a hand full of 'Manga' (about 11. something GB!). The funny thing is that she spent about 2-3 hours sorting all her mangas and that is not all she have! Like I've always tell her, 'You do live up to your reputation, our (me and Aliza) expectation,'. Sorry, Kar Yee, but thanks so so much... Ooo, and she borrowed me this TVB drama that I wanted to watch since Astro was showing it on On Demand...

Before we reach Kar Yee's place or rather room (Aliza named her room, Manga Heaven), we went to buy lunch.. Aliza bought chicken rice while me and Kar Yee bought Popiah... Its so so delicious and together with the Loh Hon Ko Loongan... its superb! hahhaha..... But then just when I was about to sit down on the chair, a UGLY, DISGUSTING and YUCKY lizard just popped up!!! It's my worst nightmare!!! It's so freaking scary, I practically ran! But not like Kar Yee, when she see cockroach =)

After that, me and Aliza watched Descendants of Darkness. It's about this two shinigami, Tsuzuki (loves sweet things like $$) and Hisoka; both are partners. So what they do is solve mystical mystery cases, like blood sucking vampires and a super duper sick doctor! This doctor; Muraki is so sick, he kills like drinking water! And he is so sick that he raped and tortured Hisoka for three years before finally killed him off, just because he witnessed his murder!

Then he wanted Tsuzaki. Seducing or rather pounding himself on Tsuzaki! All the murders that this sick doctor has committed is just to lure Tsuzaki so that he could have Tsuzaki's body!

*Left- Tsuzaki
Right- Hisoka*

What happened is that, when he was small, he had this stepbrother (Saki), who happened to killed their parents. So in order to get revenge, he confronted the Saki in a sword battle. Just when Muraki was about to be killed, the house butler shot Saki on the heart. So, he have this very sick idea of looking for a body for Saki (he kept Saki's head!), so that he could kill he with his own hands! How sick is that?! This is the reason, he is looking for Tsuzaki... Damn sick man! Who would actually 'give life' to a dead person, just to kill him again! Lols, if he need a body, just take lar any animal or tree trunk, put the head there and kill that fella lar! Why must drag others?! What is the point?! Haihz.... so so sick!

*Muraki aka Sick Doctor*

Anyways, for dinner we ate Mamak. It's been so long since I ate mamak for dinner, me ordered Garlic Naan bread... it's so so D-E-L-I-C-I-O-U-S!!!! Feel like eating it now again! hahahha...my weird weird cravings! We also bought two bottles of Carlsberg (medium) and one bottle of sparkling juice; for Aliza (big). hahaha.... This is what happened in the car...

"When you guys want to drink?" Kar Yee asked.

"Tak akan in the pool!" Aliza answered.
Translation: "Not in the pool right!"

This is the moment both me and Kar Yee, burst out laughing! Imagine, two small Carlsberg and one big bottle of sparkling juice... Isn't it funny?! Hahhaa...wanna have a Hollywood like scene, but.... turned out funny cause of the big bottle... so sesat! hahahahaha.....

While trying to sleep, we have this little girl chats about princesses, weddings and protocol. So I mentioned that when Aliza gets marry there is gonna be lots of protocol to follow.... Then I commented about the guy not only marry the girl but also the whole family, its like a PACKAGE! And out of nowhere,

"Buy one free 50!" Aliza said...

I hope you guys get the meaning of the sentence! If not, ....

Charis' World of Fantasy

Hi, blog... long time no see, since I don't visit you often. How are you doing? After two weeks of drilling, finally exams are OVER! I'm so gonna fail my Social Psych, Community Mental Health and Organisational... I have no frigging idea what she wants for essay! No idea how much I've bull in all my papers. After CMH, it was the first time I finally know my level of BULLSHITTING skills! I can bull like shit on a question which asked for research evidence! I'm shock at my Bullshitting skills.... I think partially is Kar Yee's fault!

Before I know her my bullshitting skills was only at Masters, and now, its PhD! Ah... So hard I memorised all the processes and models and research evidence for IO yet, I have no idea how to answers those questions! Even when exams are over, it doesn't feel like it! Its like something is missing, and I don't know what is it! Am I experiencing burnout or am I not that interested in Psycho?

Still trying to answer this question after my first year as a Psycho student. Sometime I wondered, how would my life be without Psycho? What will I be doing? Am I happy? Or feel very tiresome and de-motivated as I am now? Even I know that I'm gonna fail but I really hope that I would not! Even so I'm not that afraid of failing? Studying is like hell! Lectures are fine but when it comes to exams, I really curse the fella who invented this system!

Is this normal? Then again what is abnormal? All of us are abnormal in our own ways, that's what makes us unique! Ahh.... I'm Psycho-talking again! (Kar Yee will laugh when she reads this)

After so long not updating myself with DBSK news, I finally browse just now. As if I'm not depressed enough, I had to know that the possibility of them breaking up is around 90%. Everyone wants the FIVE of them to get back together again, but it's just the matter of whether can the five of them put the whole event behind them and work like they used to. I think from the moment all Cassiopeia heard about this news, somehow I think we all knew the outcome. But just that we can accept it at all, thus choosing to be believe the lies we told ourselves, 'they would be together again', 'we must have faith in them' and 'sure, we will support them individually'. But all these in a way, I think it's all lies to deceive ourselves; the activation of our surviving mechanism.

As of now, I really want to live in my own fantasy where everything goes according to my rules. At least in this place, I am the controller, I am able to escape from this harsh reality! Whoever says reality is great is a LIE! It's not great at ALL... Yes, it brings happiness but when it comes to heartbreak, reality have thrice the impact on us compared to happiness!

Here I come anime, k-drama, j-drama, Glee, Judith McNaught !