The Morning Post

Quarreled with my sister just now. I asked her politely to place back the stand fan but she ignored me and continue to sleep (she is not asleep). So I waited and waited and wait... then asked her again, and twice after that. Still she behaved so! Of course I'm fucking angry! So I raised my voice and yet she did not fucking bothered! What the hell?! She used the stand fan and just fucking leave it for me to place it back for her. I've did that a couple of times but I had enough of it!

I screamed at her and she have the nerves to say, 'Then why didn't you feed your dog before you leave? Why must Mama (grandma) do it for you?! Don't you dare say anything if your acting the same!'. FUCK her! I don't have enough time to do so! She fucking think that I love troubling a 70+ year old lady! If I have the time I would do so, but my dog does not eat that early in the morning! This she know fucking well, and still she fucking ask! Before Mama came staying with us, I practically had to pursue Cow to eat for a long time before he finally eat his food.

It's not like she did not take care of Cow before! I am fucking fed up with her annoying behaviour! Doing things dilly dally... Does not give a shit about people's feelings only HERS is; like the world is only her! Bullshit studying business management! Can't even fucking manage your personal affairs properly, wanna manage a business?! So I shouted to her, if she does not wanna put it back, then sleep outside the room! Yes, I am kicking her out of the room!

My super duper nice mom, came and said, 'What is wrong with you?! It's midnight. Who do you think you are? Is this your house?' . Automatically, she puts the blame on me, everything single thing is my fault! She didn't even bother to ask what is happening! This is so typical of her! Never she tries to understand the situation. When I tell her, she just stared at me and walked away. What the hell is that?! My grandma had to stick her feet in! Started blaming me for creating this scene...

I got really mad, so I started my sarcasms system was activated. This is precisely what I said,

'Yes, every single thing is my fault. It's ok to blame it on me... Its not like the first time, everything that has gone wrong between us (siblings) is definitely my fault! They are right, I am definitely wrong!'.

Then I was like fuck it! And went to bed...

We were asked to answer this question 'Are you a mentally healthy child?' in Mental Health Community lecture yesterday. I actually answered, yes... but now, I don't think so... Their treatment toward me is the reason why I have very low self esteem. I feel like I was never good enough for them; never meet their expectations. Like I was never the daughter they wanted...

Sometime I wonder, am I my mother's daughter. Not only the fact that my personality and behaviours are so different from hers; we are nothing alike except the face! Does she hate me for something? As a child, I was never once praised by her or my dad; not even when I scored really well in my exams. I got like 5As for PMR and 'Ok.' was all she said. Even for SPM; 5As and 5Bs, they never said anything at all. They know I am very disappointed with my results but yet they don't seem to bother; it's almost like they are ignorant. I fucking cried when I knew my results.

Why do parents like to compare their kids' results with others? Why can't they just be contented with their child's progress? Don't they know that their child's intelligence is partially their gens and it's also how they help to develop their child's intelligence at a young age? Besides education. I tend to talk blunt, but its like I wanted to. I've tried to change that weakness of mine but I find it hard to do so... If you do not like it at all, all you have to do is walk away!

I didn't force you to listen; I'm just stating my opinion towards a certain subject that I'm asked by your sister in-laws! If your sister in-laws are trying discourage me, of course I would fight back. If they are not nice to me, why would I be nice to them? If they talk sarcastic with me, I'll talk back sarcasm to them. They 'invited' me not the other way round. I know I could just ignored it, but I just can't cause it's not true and it does not sound nice at all! Do you how hard is it for me to control my temper; like the real me!

Catch Me Not?!

My routine today was disrupted! Aliza went on my Machine 1; I have no idea what it’s called. So I had to work backwards because Kar Yee was on the treadmill... So I went on the ski like machine... I did 40 minutes on that, around 5 minutes on the treadmill and then I lifted some weights. I actually wanted to lift more weights but can’t cause of time constrain and I needed to go Watson; get conditioner, and Popular; to get stationeries. So sad, my gym routine was disrupted. =,=

P/S: I never knew both Kar Yee and Aliza were so loud! I could hear them laughing all the way in the toilet!

Fast forward to IO lecture. This lecture is the one I looked forward to the most every week! I enjoyed Dr. Priya’s class a lot ... before lecture, Kar Yee, Aliza and me complimented Ian for his comment about Alex yesterday, ‘Go and be autistic somewhere else!’. Hahahaha.... The moment class begun, Dr. Priya suggested us to do some activity, since we looked so dead to her. Guess what we did?!

Maybe these will be able to help you!

After looking at the pictures, do you have any rough idea? Doesn’t it look like a scene from a movie... like in Mean Girls? Does it ring a bell now? Hahaha... We were divided into groups of 8; so there are like 4 groups. Then we are asked to choose a person who is willing to stand on the table. So without a doubt, we (Aliza, Kar Yee, Alyssa, Nadia, Ping Ying, Natalie and me) chose Nadia; she is small and she is willing too.

Task:

The chosen person has to fall from the table while the rest catch her.

‘I still want to live!’ it’s what Nadia said after hearing the instruction. She fears for her life... Well, it’s hard for her not to since we got Natalie in the group! So, we have to convince Nadia to do it, cause of her small size.

‘Imagine if you have to catch me,’ is what Natalie said.

‘Nadia, you have to do it. Cause either way, you’re gonna die,’ Alyssa said.

Natalie is quite big size (the Chinese girl in Blue shirt)... So, it will be hard for us to catch her. This is how we convinced Nadia to do it and not to mention we volunteered to go first!

While we are organizing ourselves, Nadia was freaking out standing on the table... At first she kept looking at us, but then she was demanded by Dr. Priya to face the wall.

‘Fall!’ Dr. Priya said loudly.

Nadia did but instead of full falling downwards, she fell in a sitting position! The good news is that we caught her... We didn’t plot anything! We are not that evil!

Here is a video for you to enjoy...

P/S: The guy standing on the table is Ian.

Women Feel Satisfied after Satisfying themselves, Men? After Satisfying Themselve, They are Still Not Satisfied!

For the first time in Social Psych lecture, most of the guys in the lecture actually argued with Dr. Priya trying to defend themselves from... *hint: the tittle*

It all started because of this one case study. It addresses the question, ' Will the man still choose to use a condom, while the woman uses pill?' or something similar. The result shows that, majority of men said no. Reason?

1. No Reliability
2. Its an embarrassment
3. It have no side effects

This particular case study has cause an uproar in our lecture. We spent about 30 minutes arguing on this. Well, not the whole class... mainly Ian, Micheal, Princess (Aun) and Alex. Where is Kelvin, you asked? Well, he was quiet throughout the whole argument. Why?

I have concluded that he may still be in shock; he got molested by a 20+ guy in gym! It was in front of the steam room. Then again, this kind of event may be normal for guys who goes to gym... He even told us that, there was once he saw this guy filling up himself in the shower... How? Well, technically speaking, the shower curtain in gym would not close up every corner of the shower cubical, so you can see a bit... Even when your just walking by... How I know? Well, its because its the same in the girl's shower room! So a word of advice, please be alert for those who goes to gym. Don't think that just because he look man (very built), he isn't into 'it'! Activate your defense mechanism when your in the shower room!

Anyways, back to the topic. Dr. Priya was trying to reason out why...

1. Because woman are very manipulatively sensitive
2. We are better in manipulating men. Therefore, we are better survivor than men
   
3. We can live alone better without men, better yet without men at all
4. If we leave the men alone, they would not survivor long alone. Reason: Because men does not know how to take care of themselves properly. 'Who is going to do my laundry?' will be the 1st question, when their wives leave them.
5. Our mother (women) are telling us what to do and what not to do.

And many more... too much for me to remember, you can head over to KarYee's blog. I think she have it in her post.

So Ian argued that he is offended as he was not even given a chance to defend himself before being categorised... So Dr. Priya explained that she was talking about the 80% of the men population, not the 10% on each ends of a bell curve! Dr. Priya, 'Ian your in the 10% on left extreme end of the bell curve. I am not talking about you but I'm talking about the 80%,'.

Then, Ian said 'Whatever you said, Miss. I don't believe you. Your manipulating me by saying that!'. So Ian from the 10% advanced himself into the 80% category... So, do it prove that we women are indeed very manipulative?

While arguing, Alex was closing his eyes; like a child who does not want to hear anything he dislikes. This is real good.... 'Go to back and be autistic there!' Ian -> Alex. Obviously I started laughing...like real hard! This is like the best thing Ian have said since I know him. Cheers to you, Ian!


Sara also commented that we (women) are able to make any guys to fall in love with us; we have the ability to , even if he is gay! And almost everyone agreed!


Closure to this topic,


'Women Feel Satisfied after Satisfying themselves, Men? After Satisfying Themselve, They are Still Not Satisfied!' (Dr. Priya, 2010).


Does she mean in Bed too? Guys do not be offended... I mean no harm so is my lecture...

My Favourite Sport

My Favourite sport? This question has always been a popular question back in high school. Throughout my 5 years of high school, without fail all my PE teachers would always ask this. Though I have to admit I’m not a big fan of sport but I do enjoy playing volleyball. However, I had stopped playing it (since I graduated high school).

Why? Well, mainly because not only the fact that I sweat lots but also the fact that I can’t seem to find a good deodorant! Some of it does not smell so nice and it’s not that good; anti-whitening bad! Such a waste of money!

But then just recently, I met one of my guy friend who is a football freak; plays football every single day, he smelled so nice... So I asked him what deodorant he uses... I know most guys would feel weird... but it’s me, you’re talking about! All my guy friends should know that I like to ask questions out of the blue, be it personal or really random ones!

Back to the topic, this is what he introduced me to...

Yup, he really did have the whole collection of Adidas products! He is an Adidas freak! Haihz... Who say guys does not spend unnecessarily? It’s not only girls only who like to buy one whole collection of something, guys too! To be honest, some girls don’t even go to that extend. So stop stereotyping!

Anyways, then I went home and googled their products. To my surprise, most of it is somehow produced according to an athlete’s needs, at least the men’s product. Like for one of their newest product, Pro-Level Anti-Prespirant Spray is only for athletes.

It is:

I. Protect against perspiration for more than 24 hours

II. Has special anti-whitening; minimise white marks on skin

III. No alcohol content

IV. And more!

After reading about it and see my friend’s condition, should I try? You guys should really try it too... Guys especially, you’ll definitely smell good... Your girlfriend/s would not complaint but will compliment you!

For more information about their products, please visit www.adidas.com/my/action3

Project Alpha Season 2 is presented by Adidas Action 3 and supported by P1 and MAS.

Freezing Flame

I forgot! I read this manga; Freezing Flame yesterday night. And its so so nice and sweet!

Yup, it's Yaoi. For those of you who have yet to read this genre, please try to read this manga. It's really nice and sweet, but the contents can be to graphic and explicit for some of you. Those who are new to this genre, therefore, please think twice before you proceed to read.

Despite so, no manga can beat Junjou Romantica and of course my all time favourite, Totally Captivated! I highly recommend these two mangas. It's really sweet and nice. Both are not that explicit. So go ahead and read them! But remember read them when you have the time too, not put your assignments aside just to read them...

No Limits!

Ate this for breakfast this morning!

It's been a long time since the last; in Sushi King with Aliza, Zaleha, Princess (the super bowl contest take he took part in). I know it looks nothing like the Japanese style Soba, but its the way me like it!Breakfast was satisfying, very satisfying! ><

Planned to start on Social Psych assignment essay, 'How the world form judgements'. But got lazy and sleepy, so I went to sleep til 1.30 p.m. Just so you know, after I got up, I started with the essay... at least I sort of did my introduction... Yes, I know I'm not productive at this moment... but I have my reason!

I was too depressed when I saw ' TVXQ to stop their activities in Japan indefinitely to focus on their solo activities'! Well, to be more precise, I saw it last night but ignored the news, didn't want to read it. So I read it this afternoon and ... that's why I got depressed and sort of not in the mood to do my assignment... But whatever it is, I'm gonna wait patiently for their come back as one but at the mean time the only thing I could do is support and trust them like any other DBSK/TVXQ fans around the world. It's ok Charis. Stay positive!

After sulking and all, I finally started on my essay. Did some research on 9/11... I'm planning to take the idea Izzat proposed (if you read this, and u mind, pls let me know). Then I got stuck with my intro again... =( So I sat in front of Jayden (my laptop's name) til 4 p.m. staring while waiting for inspiration.

At then only I remembered that No Limits (Korean drama) is gonna air soon on 8tv, so I watched it. U-Know is so funny and cute! I was laughing throughout the whole show... He is so funny; sad, happy, sulking, childish or expressionless, all also so funny! No idea why but he is just funny... I'm not trying to be mean but I think I understand why they (producers) end the drama early. Just like everyone, I think U-Know need to attend acting classes so that he could improve his skills and keep the critics' mouth shut then next time he acts or star in a drama.

Oh... I forgot! I baked Chocolate Sponge Cake yesterday and it looks something like this



Sorry, the chocolate that I've melted wasn't that smooth. But the taste was fabulous... Not too sweet just nice. But then the appearance and the taste can still be improve! Just so you know, this is Darcy's (Tracy + Darwin) birthday cake. They loved it...


It's gonna be 8 p.m. soon. I just remembered that Maid Sama is aring in Animax at 8.30 p.m. So please watch it. I've read the manga and its hilarious, so the anime would be even much more funny! I just hope that it's Japanese audio with english subs instead of English audio... I hate watching animes like this, I would rather watch it with Japanese audio even they do not provide English subs as I can always as my friends to translate it for me! I'm thanking Kar Yee in advance... In future, if I found an anime I wanted to watch and its only in Japanese audio... I guess you can fill in the blanks from here right?


For more information about DBSK/TVXQ please visit http://www.dbsknights.net/


You can find Maid Sama manga on Mangafox but I highly recommend you to watch the anime, although I do not know whether is it as good as I expected... but what the heck?!

Job Scopes

The first thing we needed to do was sit down and start listing both our past and current dream job. Ranging from present to past...

My list looks something like this:

1. Counselling Psychologist
2. Pastry Chef
3. Artist Manager
4. HR Manager

Then we are required to choose our interests, competences, jobs that interest us and finally rate our own abilities such as motor skills, musical skills and etc.

My final outcome.... is SEA! And my potential jobs are...

1. Diving Coach; I can't even swim what more dive!
2. Calisthenics Coach; I can't do gymnastic movements what more ballet!
3. Managing Director
4. Program Director (TV or Radio)
5. Recreation Officer
6. Teacher; I hate kids, teenager -> too troublesome
7. Family Support Worker
8. Youth Worker; like Social Worker
9. Marriage Something...

Then we are required to list out possible combinations of the code; SEA.

1. ASE- Actor, Director (Film, TV, Radio or Stage)
2. AES- Concert Singer, Singer, TV Producer
3. EAS- Executive Producer, Executive Chef, Head Chef
4. ESA- Advertising Manager, PR Officer

Look like somehow Psychology is sort of out, don't you think? Well, at least unlike Aliza; hers... is more to performing arts, the artistic side. Farrah and Dinah both got ISA... don't freak out, they are not under arrest or anything for disrupting the peace of the country! ISA is their occupation code...

and one of their jobs is... don't laugh too hard yeah!

Traditional Chinese Medicine Practitioner... the moment me and Kar Yee saw... as expected by everyone... We burst out laughing loud.... We could not stop til few minutes later... FYI, we are not mean is just too funny... Majority of our classmates are Chinese and both of them are the lucky ones...