Pain That Could Not Be Describe

It hurts me to read the latest updates as its all anything but good. Every time I read the headline my heart either skips a beat or feels so uneasy! I really hope that everything will turn out good, that everything is just a joke. I wanted it so bad to be a nightmare instead of reality!

It hurts me to see you guys slowly falling apart. Even when I tried to hold my tears but somehow it just flow naturally although I told myself nothing is ascertain yet, that there may be a turning point tomorrow. I could never imagine you guys doing your stuffs separately, individually! Why must it be this way?

Will you guys keep your promise to hold on together no matter what happens?! Will you guys fall apart because of this ridiculous thing? Will you guys ever stand on the stage as one again?

These questions seems to be unanswered. Although somewhere deep in my heart I somehow knew the answers to my questions. I hope what I felt would not come true! This group will never be complete without any of you!

Freeze! or I'll shoot

Woke up super early yesterday, then went for breakfast with "Sampat" and her dad. Thanks for the breakfast and ride Uncle Lin. Sharp at 8.30 am, went and registered then staright up to Audi 7. So big, so wide and DAMN COLD.... The first talk by some policeman, name...I forgot>< too sleepy to remember, but I do remember the talk. I didn't know that only super super rich people get apply for a gun! We are not allowed to carry any form of weapon (i.e. pen-knife, pocket knife etc.). How the hell are we (girls) suppose defense ourselves?! I got lots of questions to ask him but cause of time...so didn't get to and he left before Morning Tea. Such a disappointment!

Next slot, Cyber crime! Sorry, sort of slept... so can't remember much. Sorry!!! Then Morning Tea!!! Yes, I need my coffee!!!! The smell, the taste....Whoa, it's so so good!!!! I can't live without coffee...Yes I'm officially a coffee addict, can't start my day without it, thanks to "someone"! After that, it's arts and crafts time!!! Whoa... I'm so looking forward to this!

Instructions:
1. Draw any scene or write anything that best represent a safe community, world.
2. Then present your thoughts about the picture or slogans to your group members.

Well, I drew our planet and divided it into two parts; 1. Peaceful community and 2. Worrisome community. So the peaceful one, has people of all ages playing around, they are all smiling and greeting each other happily. It looked as if there is only happiness in a peaceful community. Whereas, the worrisome community is filled with wars, crimes, and death. In this community, people of all ages can easily die in the streets and there are no place safe at all. Everything is destroyed and ruined.

So practically it means that we as the citizen should work together to maintain the peace and harmony despite our skin-colour, religion, and where we come from. If we don't do so, our planet or rather the world would be a place where it is dangerous, worrisome and where happiness does not exist. "Peace Should Be Kept, Not Destroyed"! (sorry, didn't take a pic of it) But I took a picture of Nadia's. It's so good and pretty!!!

*Pretty right?!

After that, it's lunch time. Instead of going lunch, "Sampat", "Bai zhi", Farrah and I, went to the police cars and motorbikes showcase. OMG, it's so interesting.... see for yourself.

*Check out the interior!

I went all crazy!!! And I have a good reason for it! How often can you get into a police car or get on their bikes without getting into trouble with them? Not at all, for some people. So this is the only time for me to explore everything... I even played with the handcuff....So so fun!!! And the best of all Aliza wanted to ride in the car since they are going off, so just wanted a ride around the front foyer (the drop off). But, to our surprise, the policeman flirted with her!!! See lar, how to trust our policemen, when they pull this kind of stunts while on duty?!

Here are some pictures of drugs.... It's part of the exhibition. Sorry for the blur images.

After all that commotions, we went back to the audi for Dr Teoh's talk on Terrorism, then Mr. Linus's Commercial crime and lastly the forum. Well, what a day right?! I had so so much fun... I'm so looking forward to conventions like that!!!

Fraud? Backstabbings?

Seriously, what the hell is going on?! The other two members are backstabbing the other three. The other three is now the culprit of this whole controversy?! SME said that those three members are doing this for their own benefits. While the other two members said that it is wrong of them to do this, to even start a lawsuit! Gosh, even their parents commented on this controversy!!!

Their future as one now seem very weak and unsure. I pray hard for them to stay together but somehow, what I read today... told me otherwise! Cause of this stupid money hunger, this talented group is falling apart, into pieces! How can they let this happen, when they promised to stay together no matter what happen in the future?!

Is this just a lie?!
Promises are never meant to be broke, its meant to be kept!
If you intended to break it, then you shall never ever make another promise that you yourself cannot kept! Even when you are not sure yourself! It's not nice to give people hope and then crush it!!!

It's sad to see such talented group breaking apart because of money!!! or rather a beauty company!!! I'm disappointed to see this!

Stress Relief

After a week of stress, finally...hahahah... Went to MOS, its Traffic Light Night, yesterday.

The music last night was sucky though, lots of R&B... but what the heck... since I'm there then just have fun... hahaha...

Never thought that, our seniors knew the word 'clubbing'! Mean, I know, but they don't look like they go clubbing. Since most of them have the nerdy look... sorry!

Then, hahaha...I saw a trans dancing on the stage hahaha...she look so like a guy although she fixed herself... I just don't understand them, if they can get their body done, why not the face. To be frank, some of them do look like a girl, pretty girl. But the rest, they should get their face done too... It's the image!!! Its so funny, to see whole bunch of girls dancing on the stage and knowing the fact that one of them is a trans...hahaha...
And seriously, MOS is filled with Malays...some even drinking!!!

Here, I wanna say sorry to my friend! I really didn't know! I'm so so so sorry.... I didn't mean too... I swear I've tried it before giving it to you... I'm sorry...

I still love you and I know you do too =)
Although, I had to leave early, but last night or rather this morning was still ok for me... Just hoped that Shine could enjoy it a little longer, may be dance a bit... I think its a waste, Shine should try dancing once.... Not trying to corrupt her Izzat, but I think she should enjoy when she go to a club but not just merely observing...


Anyhow, I hope we can do this again after our finals!!!

Hectic!!!

19/10- 26/10
After Psycho essay was done, thought that I could rest a bit but turns out not. First time ever, that I've stayed up for an assignment! Writing a lit review of a report is so hard, Ms. Ebscohost was not helpful, not many journals related to my topic. What the hell, it suppose to be good, helpful, and able to find any kind of journals! And I only had less than 2 weeks to writing this report. Mr. Google was not helpful either, can't really find journals, since I have to pay to read them!

Moreover, the lecturer was not helpful at all. What the hell?! My parents paid so much and yet I got a sucky lecturer! Although, its her first time teaching, but how can she be so so bad in it! Guess her one year observations of other lecturers are just useless!

Every night without fail, my bedtime would be around 3-3.30 am. To top it off, I wake up at 7am to go college. And, guess what?! I look exactly like a walking ZOMBIE! Throughout the day, I need coffee to keep me awake in class and it's not only a small cup! But lots of small cup... I'm officially a coffee addict, I can't seem not to take them every morning.

It's get more interesting when my mom complained that I'm going back to college during weekends. What the hell am I suppose to do?! I haven't finish my report and it's due in 2 days! I have no idea how to analyse my results! Gosh, I can't even enjoy my own Scholarship award ceremony, all I could think is, "Report due in two days. When is this gonna end?!". It's suppose to my moment! But yet I can't even enjoy it.

After, the event, sat down with my group mates to figure out the analysis part. Never knew that we have lots to consider for analysis, how to compute all the scores and all. But thank goodness, I've asked for help, and got my group mates to help crack our brains. Finally, got the solution to the problem along with massive HEADACHE! I swear my brain felt like its just shrink to a very very small size, like a nut!

Finally, finished at 5 am. Thought that I could finally breathe but.... my stupid pen-drive had to fail me. It would not OPEN and I didn't have my laptop with me!!! What the hell?! Of all days, that stupid pen-drive had to choose the due day! Thank goodness, its due at 12pm! So I rushed home and ... (need not elaborate)


Thanks so so much Kar Yee and Jackson!!!

500 Days of...

This movie is so nice....but at the same time it's sad and stupid!

My goodness, "Do not want anything serious.", but lead the poor guy to think that he is having a serious relationship with you and all the possibles. That is so mean! And Tom just fall too hard, although he didn't really know Summer yet.

But, one thing funny is that, they edited the kissing and making out scenes. And the guys went, "ah...rg....what!". I'm not sure whether is it all the guys in the cinema or just Princess, Alex and Alan cause it's so loud. But the girls reacted the same way too... Gosh, these people are horny...hahahaha.....

Although, Summer ended up marrying someone else, but at least Tom is finally pursuing his dream job and meet a girl named Autumn! Hahaha....funny ending!!!

Workout Time!

Omg, I'm so heavy!!! I can't even lift myself up! Started off with that skiing machine, only 10 minutes warm up and I'm sweating like shit! Not to mention out of breathe too. I have really bad stamina. Then, I did 3 sets of sit ups. It's a good thing that I do sit ups daily, so the impact was not that bad.

Then, I have too hold myself up, don't really know how to explain. But this is how I realised that I'm super heavy! Then, Push ups! My worst nightmare! I've never do push ups before, not even in high school. Gosh, I really solute those who did the guy's version of push ups. I can't even do the girl's version properly... I also did the sit/ squat exercise... And my legs hurt!!!I'm depress now!

Lastly, I ran, well not run, but more of walking in a very fast pace on the treadmill for 35 minutes non-stop.... and both my biceps and triceps hurts.... But it's ok.... I had fun doing all of it!!! Though I complain alot...hahaha

And the steam room is super after sweating.... Japanese really know how to enjoy life....Thanks to them I get to enjoy it as well!!!